First step

  I am still trying to figure out how I am going to structure this so for now it will simply be me talking to you in great big circles. Bear with me kids.

  Today started out on an up. On a scale of 1 to 10 I would say I was a 7 or so. The danger on ups is that I will grab food without thinking coupled with an odd hedonistic tendency. My senses often feel like they are on overdrive. Because today was my first day the little voice in my head, we will call her "sane lisa" kept a bit more control than usual.


Hard boiled egg ( eaten when I got to work- I am trying to not wait until I am starving and protein in the morning is the best way to start the day)

whole grain bagel with slice of tomato and cheese ( get used to this one it's my favorite thing for breakfast)

roast beef on whole grain with lettuce, tomato and mustard (bloody meat ftw!)

Stir fry chicken and rice with veggies- homemade so I can control the amount of oil and sugar sauce.

ten M&M's (yes I counted. This is where my day started to come back down)



So at the end of the day food was good, no workout and I am feeling down again. About a 4. As the down took over the cravings for something sweet ramped up.
There has to be a way to control the impulses. At the moment I am not sure how.