i've thought a lot on this subject actually ... for a long time i was very convinced (frightened) that i had worn so many masks for so long that i had truly lost who was the real me ... the one without the mask ... then i thought, what if there isn't a "real" me and it's always a mask? and that scared the heck out of me until i also realized that i AM my masks ... i am and will always be me ... my masks are me, the masks i choose to wear are chosen by me, when i am alone it's just the alone mask ... when i thought of the masks as truly part of me i realized that they weren't masks at all, they were conscious choices to do and not do things ... by realizing that it was all part of me i realized the immense amount of control i really had